Sorry I haven't be writing much in here. There's a reason for that.. really there is.
For one, I still don't have internet (Well.. not REALLY). Two, I've been really depressed lately.. everything's hitting me at once and I'm really overwhelmed and confused. And three, I bought a leather journal and have been mostly just writing in that. I want to keep some thoughts to myself, because there's certain things I think that I don't want certain people to know.
So yeah.
I don't really have much to say now, either. Things with me and Andrew... are very complicated. I can't do anything; I have to sit back and see if he decides to keep my heart or throw it away. It's very scary and frustrating... but I have to do it *shrugs* To me, I don't really have another choice. I still get butterflies when I think about how things used to be, and the way things were.
He might be coming up here sometime after mid-August.. But that hasn't been determined and we'll have to see if that actually happens. It's really on what he decides between now and then and what happens that determines that.
I also saw that he had put poems that he had written for me on his DA account... and for some reason that made me really emotionaly and I started crying. *shrugs*
Other than that, I don't know what to tell you. Oh yeah.. I was going to put a picture of Megan up.. one with her short-and-now-platinum-blonde hair. I'll do it later, and whern I'm on a different computer.
Anyways, I hope everything's been good for all you out there.
It's been hell for me :-P But I hope it'll get better.
Angel : 2:06 PM